Prayer

Well, after a false alarm on Monday, the Dr. and I have decided to induce on Thursday. I told my mom I feel like I am headed to the guillotine. It is so nice to be able to plan for my class but I have all these doubts. I laid awake last night wondering what in the world I thought I would do with a child? What kind of mother will I be? Can I do this? Can I actually have a baby without pain medication? What if I can't do it and I make a fool of myself?

Anyway, if you could pray that God will give me peace and be with Jayson and I as we welcome our baby girl into the world.

Falling Off the Cliff

Have you ever had one of those dreams where you know you are going to go over the side of the cliff and there is nothing you can do about it? At this point I am catapulting over the side of a cliff and I can do nothing to stop it. This sounds scary and kind of depressing but I have found that this is when God grows can grow me the most. It is a time when I can't depend on me so I have to depend on Him. I think this is a good thing.

I have been teaching now for 7 school days. It is amazing to me that I am now accomplishing what I went to school for for so long. I am not sure if I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing, but I am doing all I can:).

I am also about three weeks out from my due date! Can I just say this is the scariest most exciting thing I have ever waited for. Sometimes I cry because I am so scared I can't breath and sometimes I just cry and no one really knows why:). That I guess is the joy of pregnancy.

Between these two things, I don't think I can handle much else. I am so overwhelmed with life right now. But at the same time I am so excited about all that is going on. I keep wanting to pause things so that I can stop for a minute and just look around and appreciate all the things that are going on. But I seemed to have misplaced the remote...along with everything else:)!