Ava used the potty!

So I just wanted to give a little shout out to my little girl for using the big girl potty for the first time!! I am so proud of her!! We have been talking about it and sitting on it for months now and this was the first time we actually accomplished something!! I think she is a little overwhelmed because Daddy and Mommy went a little nuts, but she knows it's a good thing! We are going to definitely continue working on it!

5 Month Update

So, apparently my M.O. is that I only blog about every half a year. Kinda like my dentist appointments. So here is and update on my life.

I have been attending a bible study called "More Than Just a Good Bible Study Girl". And I guess I am not more than a good bible study girl because I haven't done a lick of homework. But I am getting things out of it. Like how God is training me where I am for what He wants me to do. I always lament to myself about my lack of a life or lack of a testimony. But Lysa talked about how God trained King David to be the king of His people while David was tending his sheep. God is training me right now where I am to do His work even if where I am right now seems somehow less than meaningful.

I have always related to King David. Not that I am like him by any means, but I WANT to be like him. I want to be a woman after God's own heart. I just struggle with the rhythm. I gave the example in bible study about how Jayson and I went salsa dancing. Jayson knew the right steps and the order of the steps but he couldn't get it with the rhythm. I feel like that with my relationship with God. I know what steps to take but I can't seem to get the rhythm in my life. I want my life to be a beautiful dance with God. Dipping and twirling in tandem and feeling like I know God well enough that I can feel that nudge on my hand to tell me to go left or right, forward or back, twirl under or over. Sometimes I feel that nudge on my hand, but mostly I don't. Mostly I feel like the girl at the prom without a dance partner, not because the King doesn't want to dance with me, but because I am too willful to follow His lead. How do I let Him lead when I don't feel His hand nudging mine in my life in those small moments? I don't want to make a fool of Him and fall flat on my face and make people wonder about those "Christians". I am a horrible follower when it comes to dancing and when it comes to life.

My goal with this bible study is to learn to dance with God. To let Him lead in our Tango and to let it go when I fall and make mistakes, because the other thing I have learned in this Bible study, is that God can use our mistakes too.