Monday, October 27, 2008
beautiful
I just have to say, Ava just gave me the most beautiful smile! Her eyes lit up and everything! Surely that had to be the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
Ava is here!
Wow, it's hard to believe it has been four weeks since I posted last and was so scared about having a baby. As it turns out, I had every right to be scared! After seven hours of intense labor, we made the decision to transfer to the hospital and get an epidural. Now, let me explain myself. First of all I refer to it as "intense" labor because technically it isn't active labor until one is dialated to a four. I was at a two, seven hours later, I was at a two and a half. Yes, ladies and gentelmen, it took me seven hours to dialate one half of a centimeter. Things were not going...at all...
My fabulous nurse was going to start pitocin but my wise mother knew that I could not handle that without help so we made the transfer. Once I got to the hospital, via ambulance (that's a whole other story for a different post), I got into my new room and got the epidural. For those of you who don't know, I am a needle freak!! I hate them, no one is even allowed to touch the part in my arm where blood is drawn from because it bothers me so badly. So one would think that I would have a hard time getting an ENORMOUS needle shoved into my spine would send me over the edge. But I didn't even flinch. I was so tired and worn out from my contractions that I didn't even feel the epidural.
Let me just back up and tell you a little about my contractions. They were very irregular. I was having four or five peaks a contraction. So for those of you who have experienced natural labor, that means that the really painful part in the middle of the contraction...I HAD FOUR OR FIVE EACH CONTRACTION!! This was not fair. Once I was on the monitor at the hospital and they had started pitocin they realized why I kept saying that my contractions weren't going away. They never did regulate either, even with pitocin.
But then I had the epidural, everyone was sent home to rest because I still had so far to go. My amazing Dr. who was so sweet and a Christian, made a bed for my very tired and very wonderful and very supportive husband. And we all settled down to sleep for a few hours. But this was not to be. About an hour later I woke up when my nurse was in the room and told her I was feeling a lot of pressure so she checked me and I was complete! She told me not to move and not to cough and blitzed out of the room to get the doc. I very carefully called out to Jayson that it was time to roll and he made the necessary phone calls. Once I started pushing, it only took about 45 minutes to finally get our beautiful little girl in my arms!
Ava came into the world on September 26, 2008 at 7:42 am weighing in at 7 lbs and 2 oz. and she was 20 inches long. She was the most beautiful angel I had ever seen. The one thing I remember most was how she was crying when they put her up on my chest and I started talking to her and she stopped crying and looked at me. I mean she looked me right in the eyes like she knew who I was. God is so good!
Life after her arrival has been the most wonderful adjustment we have ever had to make. She is such a good baby and has slept through the night from day one. When she cries, it is just the sweetest sound. That is not to say her scream isn't earth shattering...it is. Jayson and I have been blessed beyond what we deserve and we are so thankful to God for this beautiful life He created and deemed us worthy to be apart of.
My fabulous nurse was going to start pitocin but my wise mother knew that I could not handle that without help so we made the transfer. Once I got to the hospital, via ambulance (that's a whole other story for a different post), I got into my new room and got the epidural. For those of you who don't know, I am a needle freak!! I hate them, no one is even allowed to touch the part in my arm where blood is drawn from because it bothers me so badly. So one would think that I would have a hard time getting an ENORMOUS needle shoved into my spine would send me over the edge. But I didn't even flinch. I was so tired and worn out from my contractions that I didn't even feel the epidural.
Let me just back up and tell you a little about my contractions. They were very irregular. I was having four or five peaks a contraction. So for those of you who have experienced natural labor, that means that the really painful part in the middle of the contraction...I HAD FOUR OR FIVE EACH CONTRACTION!! This was not fair. Once I was on the monitor at the hospital and they had started pitocin they realized why I kept saying that my contractions weren't going away. They never did regulate either, even with pitocin.
But then I had the epidural, everyone was sent home to rest because I still had so far to go. My amazing Dr. who was so sweet and a Christian, made a bed for my very tired and very wonderful and very supportive husband. And we all settled down to sleep for a few hours. But this was not to be. About an hour later I woke up when my nurse was in the room and told her I was feeling a lot of pressure so she checked me and I was complete! She told me not to move and not to cough and blitzed out of the room to get the doc. I very carefully called out to Jayson that it was time to roll and he made the necessary phone calls. Once I started pushing, it only took about 45 minutes to finally get our beautiful little girl in my arms!
Ava came into the world on September 26, 2008 at 7:42 am weighing in at 7 lbs and 2 oz. and she was 20 inches long. She was the most beautiful angel I had ever seen. The one thing I remember most was how she was crying when they put her up on my chest and I started talking to her and she stopped crying and looked at me. I mean she looked me right in the eyes like she knew who I was. God is so good!
Life after her arrival has been the most wonderful adjustment we have ever had to make. She is such a good baby and has slept through the night from day one. When she cries, it is just the sweetest sound. That is not to say her scream isn't earth shattering...it is. Jayson and I have been blessed beyond what we deserve and we are so thankful to God for this beautiful life He created and deemed us worthy to be apart of.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Prayer
Well, after a false alarm on Monday, the Dr. and I have decided to induce on Thursday. I told my mom I feel like I am headed to the guillotine. It is so nice to be able to plan for my class but I have all these doubts. I laid awake last night wondering what in the world I thought I would do with a child? What kind of mother will I be? Can I do this? Can I actually have a baby without pain medication? What if I can't do it and I make a fool of myself?
Anyway, if you could pray that God will give me peace and be with Jayson and I as we welcome our baby girl into the world.
Anyway, if you could pray that God will give me peace and be with Jayson and I as we welcome our baby girl into the world.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Falling Off the Cliff
Have you ever had one of those dreams where you know you are going to go over the side of the cliff and there is nothing you can do about it? At this point I am catapulting over the side of a cliff and I can do nothing to stop it. This sounds scary and kind of depressing but I have found that this is when God grows can grow me the most. It is a time when I can't depend on me so I have to depend on Him. I think this is a good thing.
I have been teaching now for 7 school days. It is amazing to me that I am now accomplishing what I went to school for for so long. I am not sure if I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing, but I am doing all I can:).
I am also about three weeks out from my due date! Can I just say this is the scariest most exciting thing I have ever waited for. Sometimes I cry because I am so scared I can't breath and sometimes I just cry and no one really knows why:). That I guess is the joy of pregnancy.
Between these two things, I don't think I can handle much else. I am so overwhelmed with life right now. But at the same time I am so excited about all that is going on. I keep wanting to pause things so that I can stop for a minute and just look around and appreciate all the things that are going on. But I seemed to have misplaced the remote...along with everything else:)!
I have been teaching now for 7 school days. It is amazing to me that I am now accomplishing what I went to school for for so long. I am not sure if I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing, but I am doing all I can:).
I am also about three weeks out from my due date! Can I just say this is the scariest most exciting thing I have ever waited for. Sometimes I cry because I am so scared I can't breath and sometimes I just cry and no one really knows why:). That I guess is the joy of pregnancy.
Between these two things, I don't think I can handle much else. I am so overwhelmed with life right now. But at the same time I am so excited about all that is going on. I keep wanting to pause things so that I can stop for a minute and just look around and appreciate all the things that are going on. But I seemed to have misplaced the remote...along with everything else:)!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
My Wonderful Husband
Recently some friends of ours got engaged and they are so cute! They are always touching and smiling and feeding each other. We don't do that anymore. After all, it's been three years. I was feeling pretty sad about this and would tell my husband this every time we spent time with these friends. But I just shared a moment with my husband that lets me know that even though we aren't all mushy gushy anymore he loves me even more than he used to. Let me explain.
I am eight months pregnant and quite roundish. My doctor keeps telling me my uterus is too big and all the old ladies at church love to exclaim how big I am. So reaching my toes is getting hard to do to say the least. And they were dirty cuz I am the cliche' bare-foot and pregnant type I guess. So my husband, being the wonderful many that he is, cleaned them off for me. Between the toes and all.
Now that, my friends, is true love.
I am eight months pregnant and quite roundish. My doctor keeps telling me my uterus is too big and all the old ladies at church love to exclaim how big I am. So reaching my toes is getting hard to do to say the least. And they were dirty cuz I am the cliche' bare-foot and pregnant type I guess. So my husband, being the wonderful many that he is, cleaned them off for me. Between the toes and all.
Now that, my friends, is true love.
Hi-Ho Hi-Ho It's Off to Work I Go!
Well I officially started working in my classroom this week and I am so glad I had a week and a half in advance to work on it before my contract "work days" start. Work days usually consist of lots of meetings and proffessional development stuff. No time to work in the class. So I have rounded up any available family member to come and help me put this class into order.
You know how when you move into an old house there are all sorts of "fixes" that have been done over the years? Well the same is true for a school that is 100 years old. But this school has charm and I love it! It smells like I remember school smelling. A mixture of paper and pencils and something else...anyway, it's a good smell. I have also had a lot of fun ordering supplies for my room and since it's kindergarten, I get to order all the really cute stuff! For all you teachers out there, I really like the DJ Inkers stuff. Very cute!
The only downside is that I am in a frenzy to have everything absolutely organized and ready to go so that when I go on maternity leave I am not so stressed out about it. Especially since I just found out I don't get paid maternity leave...ouch! I am hoping my principal will let my wonderful aide, Lucy, be my sub. I would feel so much better knowing that my class is keeping its continuity and that they are still getting appropriate education in my absence. I plan to stop in every once in a while so that my kids don't forget me. I also am going to do parent teacher conferences. So it isn't really a complete leave.
I would appreciate your prayers in all of this. I am worried about the money part mostly. I am now the primary provider since my husband is going back to school full time. I am frustrated that although we are very responsible with our money and we have planned everything out, or thought we had, we still are going to be behind and really really tight for the next few months. I know God will provide, just like he provided me the perfect job. Sometimes though I need reminding:).
God Bless You All!!!
You know how when you move into an old house there are all sorts of "fixes" that have been done over the years? Well the same is true for a school that is 100 years old. But this school has charm and I love it! It smells like I remember school smelling. A mixture of paper and pencils and something else...anyway, it's a good smell. I have also had a lot of fun ordering supplies for my room and since it's kindergarten, I get to order all the really cute stuff! For all you teachers out there, I really like the DJ Inkers stuff. Very cute!
The only downside is that I am in a frenzy to have everything absolutely organized and ready to go so that when I go on maternity leave I am not so stressed out about it. Especially since I just found out I don't get paid maternity leave...ouch! I am hoping my principal will let my wonderful aide, Lucy, be my sub. I would feel so much better knowing that my class is keeping its continuity and that they are still getting appropriate education in my absence. I plan to stop in every once in a while so that my kids don't forget me. I also am going to do parent teacher conferences. So it isn't really a complete leave.
I would appreciate your prayers in all of this. I am worried about the money part mostly. I am now the primary provider since my husband is going back to school full time. I am frustrated that although we are very responsible with our money and we have planned everything out, or thought we had, we still are going to be behind and really really tight for the next few months. I know God will provide, just like he provided me the perfect job. Sometimes though I need reminding:).
God Bless You All!!!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Life Update
Well, it has been like 6 months since I have posted anything on my blog. Partly because I am lazy and forget about doing it but mostly because I just now figured out my password again!!! This is why I only have one password for everything, because as soon as I do another one, I forget ALL of them!! So I am making an effort to catch up on everything I have missed.
First off, I graduated! This was a huge blessing/relief/achievement... Whatever you want to call it, I am just so glad I am done. I am not a good student. Maybe I shouldn't admit that since I am going to be a teacher, but I am not. I struggle a lot with taking tests. I can write a paper no problem but when it comes to taking a test, it doesn't matter how long I study for it, I usually get a 'c'. That doesn't do a lot of good for one's GPA. But it is done now and one day I will think about getting my master's in reading, but not for a while:).
After graduation I started working at the summer school program in Homedale. I taught kindergarten this year and I just LOVED it!! The kids were so precious and I fell in love with them. They all were so curious about my roundish belly and when we were at recess they all loved to ask about the baby. My favorite question of the year came from a little guy named Oscar. He has a pretty heavy spanish accent for a little guy. He came up to me and asked if I "was having a man or a woman, eh?" Totally serious. He wasn't very happy when I laughed but it was so funny I couldn't help it. I told him I was having a girl. He was happy with that and went on with whatever he was doing:).
During this time I was starting to get rather anxious about not having a job. Because of the economy there has been no growth in the area and because of this, there are hardly any teaching positions anywhere. There was one certified teaching position in the 13 elementary schools in Nampa. One. In years passed they have hired around one hundred new teachers. This did not bolster my confidence in the possibility of me getting a job. I really do appreciate the wait though because it really made me rely on God and trust in Him to supply our needs. I have to have a job this year if Jayson is going to be able to go to school full time. Since this has been the agreement from the beginning, I really wanted to follow through with that. Besides Jayson is a much better student than I could ever hope to be. He was so wonderful to let me finish first and so patient with me through all the stress of my time in school, that I really was frustrated at the thought that I might not be able to do that for him. When I got a call for an interview for a 3rd, 4th, and 5th grade interview, I jumped on it. I wasn't sure that this would be the best fit for me but I figured I might as well get my foot in the door. I also told them I was pregnant at the end of this interview, I felt that since it was quite obvious I was pregnant I should be honest:). I figured that this sealed the deal, if the didn't hire me for one of these positions, they probably wouldn't call me back for any other interview because I was pregnant and would need a maternity leave like 5 weeks into the school year. But God had other plans in mind. When they called me to let me know that I didn't get one of those positions, the principle asked if I would want to come back to interview for a kindergarten position that had recently opened up. I am not going to lie, I was a little frustrated. I had already done like 6 interviews and I wasn't sure I could get myself pepped up for yet another. But I went and they called me two hours later and offered me the position!!! God is SOOOO GOOD! It goes before the board on Monday and after that it is all paperwork! I am so excited to be teaching kindergarten. I lOVE this age. They are so fun and excited about everything!! I can't wait to meet my kids!!
Since then I have just been finishing up the nursery for my sweet baby girl who will be in my arms in ten weeks or less!! I must admit I am a bit apprehensive about the whole delivery but God created me to do this and I have had such an easy pregnancy that there is no reason to think the delivery will be any different. I feel like I already know her. She loves warm water. When I get in the shower, she pushes up as close to my skin as she can get. She loves her daddy. Anytime Jayson is around and she hears his voice, she starts to move. He was gone for a week and I was a little worried because she hardly moved at all. But when he hugged me at the airport and started talking to me, she started right back up again. She also responds to her cousin Tyler. When I went with Tyler and MIchelle to get Tyler's shots, she started rolling when Tyler started screaming and didn't stop until he stopped. I think they are going to be the best of friends! I am anxious to meet her and get to hold her and nurse her and kiss her. She is going to be the most spoiled little girl ever.
Well I think that about does it:). Hopefully I will be a little more consistent in posting so that I don't have these monster posts anymore:). God bless you all!!
First off, I graduated! This was a huge blessing/relief/achievement... Whatever you want to call it, I am just so glad I am done. I am not a good student. Maybe I shouldn't admit that since I am going to be a teacher, but I am not. I struggle a lot with taking tests. I can write a paper no problem but when it comes to taking a test, it doesn't matter how long I study for it, I usually get a 'c'. That doesn't do a lot of good for one's GPA. But it is done now and one day I will think about getting my master's in reading, but not for a while:).
After graduation I started working at the summer school program in Homedale. I taught kindergarten this year and I just LOVED it!! The kids were so precious and I fell in love with them. They all were so curious about my roundish belly and when we were at recess they all loved to ask about the baby. My favorite question of the year came from a little guy named Oscar. He has a pretty heavy spanish accent for a little guy. He came up to me and asked if I "was having a man or a woman, eh?" Totally serious. He wasn't very happy when I laughed but it was so funny I couldn't help it. I told him I was having a girl. He was happy with that and went on with whatever he was doing:).
During this time I was starting to get rather anxious about not having a job. Because of the economy there has been no growth in the area and because of this, there are hardly any teaching positions anywhere. There was one certified teaching position in the 13 elementary schools in Nampa. One. In years passed they have hired around one hundred new teachers. This did not bolster my confidence in the possibility of me getting a job. I really do appreciate the wait though because it really made me rely on God and trust in Him to supply our needs. I have to have a job this year if Jayson is going to be able to go to school full time. Since this has been the agreement from the beginning, I really wanted to follow through with that. Besides Jayson is a much better student than I could ever hope to be. He was so wonderful to let me finish first and so patient with me through all the stress of my time in school, that I really was frustrated at the thought that I might not be able to do that for him. When I got a call for an interview for a 3rd, 4th, and 5th grade interview, I jumped on it. I wasn't sure that this would be the best fit for me but I figured I might as well get my foot in the door. I also told them I was pregnant at the end of this interview, I felt that since it was quite obvious I was pregnant I should be honest:). I figured that this sealed the deal, if the didn't hire me for one of these positions, they probably wouldn't call me back for any other interview because I was pregnant and would need a maternity leave like 5 weeks into the school year. But God had other plans in mind. When they called me to let me know that I didn't get one of those positions, the principle asked if I would want to come back to interview for a kindergarten position that had recently opened up. I am not going to lie, I was a little frustrated. I had already done like 6 interviews and I wasn't sure I could get myself pepped up for yet another. But I went and they called me two hours later and offered me the position!!! God is SOOOO GOOD! It goes before the board on Monday and after that it is all paperwork! I am so excited to be teaching kindergarten. I lOVE this age. They are so fun and excited about everything!! I can't wait to meet my kids!!
Since then I have just been finishing up the nursery for my sweet baby girl who will be in my arms in ten weeks or less!! I must admit I am a bit apprehensive about the whole delivery but God created me to do this and I have had such an easy pregnancy that there is no reason to think the delivery will be any different. I feel like I already know her. She loves warm water. When I get in the shower, she pushes up as close to my skin as she can get. She loves her daddy. Anytime Jayson is around and she hears his voice, she starts to move. He was gone for a week and I was a little worried because she hardly moved at all. But when he hugged me at the airport and started talking to me, she started right back up again. She also responds to her cousin Tyler. When I went with Tyler and MIchelle to get Tyler's shots, she started rolling when Tyler started screaming and didn't stop until he stopped. I think they are going to be the best of friends! I am anxious to meet her and get to hold her and nurse her and kiss her. She is going to be the most spoiled little girl ever.
Well I think that about does it:). Hopefully I will be a little more consistent in posting so that I don't have these monster posts anymore:). God bless you all!!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
We are having BABY!!!!
Yay we are pregnant! I am in my seventh week and I am so excited! We are due in October which I am a little worried about since I will have just started teaching my first year. I am trying to figure out if I should tell my prospective boss before or after being hired. I am in such a moral dilemma! So if anyone has an opinion about how this should work feel free to let me know!
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Graduation Countdown!!!
Yay for me I only have like 2ish months left before I graduate!! I am so excited! I have started a graduation countdown on my binder. Although I am not excited for the graduation ceremony itself, I am only going for my mom, I am excited for finally being done with this last four years! I am excited about the job interviews and all of those kinds of things that I will be doing in the next couple of weeks.
On an entirely different note, I think I am going to paint my room. I have been living in this house almost three years and the colors have been the same! Anyone that knows me knows that I hate to have the same colors all the time. So the time has come again to paint. Needless to say Jayson isn't overly thrilled about this. He hates to paint. I think I am going to go with a flat tope color!
Well, now I have posted so no one can complain! :)
On an entirely different note, I think I am going to paint my room. I have been living in this house almost three years and the colors have been the same! Anyone that knows me knows that I hate to have the same colors all the time. So the time has come again to paint. Needless to say Jayson isn't overly thrilled about this. He hates to paint. I think I am going to go with a flat tope color!
Well, now I have posted so no one can complain! :)
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